Hi everyone! A bit of a different post for me today to introduce you to my new series ‘The Happiness Project’. I have been thinking a lot about happiness recently, the concept of being happy and the idea of exploring alternative therapies for my severe depression/PTSD. Now I wont bore you with another depressing post about depression, I think we all know by now I have it, it’s a reaction to childhood trauma and it’s an ongoing problem for me but one that I will now openly say this about: I have had enough! I have had enough of being panicked all the time, of feeling anxious and worried and having heart palpitations over the smallest things. I have had enough of waking up and wishing I hadn’t, of hating my life and wishing for things to have been different. I have had enough of feeling shit about myself, of having nightmares and panic attacks about my past and even now about my future! I have just had enough of being depressed. It has taken me 3 years of many many duvet days, panic attacks and angry outbursts to realise you have to choose happy. Depression can’t be ‘fixed’ but it can be handled (Yes Olivia Pope style!) and I am done dancing to it’s tune.
So I came up with an idea, I am going to CHOOSE happy. That means no more wallowing (yes I have a recognised mental disability but I have definitely spent a bit too much time wallowing in misery instead of fighting it!) and bringing more joy into my life. I genuinely don’t remember the last time I just had fun without worrying or stressing about what happens next. So my plan (and I use the word ‘plan’ loosely and plans get broken and I guess this is more of a lifestyle change!) is to try out lots of different mini ‘happiness projects’ to bring some much needed joy into my life and I would love it if you followed me and my journey (I am seriously cringing at using the word journey!) I thought each week I could try something new, a new therapy or a new change to bring some happiness into my life, no matter how small and then report back on how I have found it and how it’s affected me.
So some of the ideas I have had are:
Healthy body, healthy mind: a week of eating my way to happiness!
Hydrate: the affects of increasing water intake on the mind (and body- with before and after pics)
Social media blackout: decreasing time spent online and restricting devices before bedtime: affects on sleeping and mental state!
Enriching the mind: spending time visiting historical sites and galleries.
Pamper time: a week of at home treatments and the affect on my confidence.
Negative blackout: avoiding negativity and spending time focusing on laughter and joy!
Alternative therapies: do they work?
Saying yes! Facing the fear of the unknown.
These are just a few of the top of my head but I’d love to know what you think and if you have any ideas for me to try out?
Just making this decision has made me feel happier than I have been in a long time and I am really excited to try out something new and *fingers crossed* make some big changes to my life and actually start living!
I’d love for you to get involved and help support me as I try this out, I’ll still be doing beauty posts too so make sure you are following me via bloglovin to keep up to day with those too 🙂