My 2013 Resolutions

I have seen a lot of these New Years Resolutions posts and I have loved reading them so I thought I would share mine with you too! Now I am calling mine ‘My 2013 Resolutions’ because I find if I call them New Years Resolutions that’s all they ever end up being, something I do for the first few weeks of a new year and then I forget about. I want to approach these things sort of like a healthy eating plan, you have to make a lifestyle change because fad diets only last for as long as you can keep them going. So these are my resolutions for 2013, let me know what you think!

I know this seems totally naff and boring but I really want to make a big effort to hydrate more, I can actually go hours and hours without a drink and it’s just really bad for your body and your skin to not stay hydrated. This will be quite difficult for me because I actually quite dislike the taste of water so I will find lots of other ways to stay hydrated (no I don’t mean through Vodka, would be nice if it counted though!)

I actually got my new diary today, I used to buy them and then totally forget I had them! I am a total scatter brain, it drives my friends mad and I always double book/forget/run out of time and money before the end of the month. This isn’t because I am so darn popular but because I am too lazy to stay organised, but 2013 will be the year this changes!

This one isn’t to everyones taste, some people don’t like to blog everyday but I do, I see my blog as a bit of an online diary where I can share with you everything I am getting up to, I hope that’s one of the reasons you like reading my blog actually. I never ask for feedback but I would love to know what you like about Carlotta’s Beauty Spot? I do put a big amount of effort into keeping it a bright and cheerful place for you to lose a bit of time reading my ramblings. I sometimes talk about darker or more important subjects but I still like to keep those things interesting and not depressing! I was published in the Handpicked Media book in 2012, featured in a beauty magazine and went to over 500 followers here on my blog. Sometimes I see bloggers says that ‘it means the world’ to them that you read their blogs and I am totally sure it does, but it has been a life changing thing for me. With my depression this blog has been a reason to get up some days when I have felt overwhelmed and alone. I have met some amazing girls and really feel like I am becoming the person I have always wanted to be everyday and that is all thanks to you lovely people!

Being clinically depressed can sometimes (ironically) make you feel…well….depressed! Seriously sometimes I get so down thinking about this disease I have and it can be all consuming. I have a lovely family and some amazing trusted friends who I know I can rely on totally but sometimes I just want to lock myself in a dark room and never come out. Now I am not saying every time someone says to me ‘lets do something’ or ‘lets go somewhere’ I will, sometimes I have to ride out my moods because you can’t always predict how you will feel with depression but I will definitely be making a conscious effort to say yes more and to spend time growing as a person. 

I really want to take some classes this year to improve myself and to make me more confident in different areas. I love jewellery making and I love photography so I will be signing up at my local college to do some short courses, hopefully it will lead to me meeting some new like minded people as well! I will also try and attend some blogging seminars to get a better handle on this blogging world I am in, especially for help with html coding as you all know I am pretty clueless with that!

I am so nervous and scared to attend events that I always say no when I am asked. I am totally a shy and self conscious person and haven’t really met any new people since I was diagnosed with depression. This has made it near on impossible for me to feel confident by myself but I want to get a little of the ‘old’ me back who was a bit of a badass London girl who wasn’t afraid of anything! I need to remind myself these events aren’t an ‘obligation’ or even ‘work’ they are lovely parties with free goodies, great networking and from what I gather some pretty yummy food and drink! If I think like this then I shouldn’t be too scared!

Another depression one, sorry! Since being diagnosed with depression I have been finding it pretty hard to go out of the house alone. For the first 6 months I had to go EVERYWHERE accompanied by my mum or dad. It was the post traumatic shock of my abuse which made me terrified of every little noise and movement. I have started to gain confidence in this area, I can now get the bus to town on my own and I can meet people other than my Mum and Dad which was impossible 6 months ago. I know you might read this and think I am totally a weirdo but this is something I have really found hard to cope with so please try to be a little understanding. I want to start popping into town once a week with my iPad and blogging from a coffee shop on my own, even if I do it where I will be met by someone to go home with it’s all a way to boost my confidence.

That’s it really girlies, not too much but things that will be life changing for me. 2012 was a very big year for me but unfortunately it was mainly a sad year. Now I am starting to see light at the end of the depression tunnel I am hoping 2013 will be ‘my’ year where I can really start to mould myself into the happy, healthy person I now believe I deserve to be. Let me know what your resolutions are or leave me your post links if you have blogged about them!